It is a sweet September morning. The air is fresh, cool, clean and crisp. The sun is shining and the sky is actually quite blue. I’m sitting on our deck drinking my coffee and soaking in the newness of the day. The summer was a string of wet, gray sunless days here in Kentucky. I suffer from multi-symptom migraine disease and that kind of weather is my biggest foe. So, I sit, today, and soak in this day and all of the promises from God – He, indeed, does make all things new. He does give us a brand new day. He never leaves or forsakes us. His grace is sufficient. Joy truly does come in the morning.
When I began this journey over a year ago, one of the first blogs I wrote, in November 2015, was called Just Sitting (in my archives). The blog was about Mary and Martha. I had been Martha for so long and didn’t realize how rarely I just sat down at His feet. I honestly thought I was Mary in the story! I was depleted and completely burned out. I knew God was calling me to sit a while at His feet and let go of the role of Martha for a time. The past year has been such an amazing time in my life and journey with Christ. I believe God takes us where we are and helps determine our steps, if we are listening to him everyday. Through all the moments of our lives God is with us. Through the struggles and through the victories, his continual presence is always there as He promised.
“Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful” (Hebrews 10:23). I most definitely held, unswervingly, to the hope I professed. It seemed if I let go I wouldn’t be able to ever get my grip back. I can see, now, the greatest assurance I had was the fact that He was holding me all along. He was the one who was faithful even when I couldn’t be. Always faithful…
Our lives, for the most part, are full of routines. We follow a pattern that keeps us productive and effective throughout our years. It is in the seasons of great joy and great suffering when these patterns vary. As sojourners on this earth we are guaranteed to have struggles and hardships.
“Remember the word that I said unto you, the servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.” (John 15:20)
This is when we have the opportunity to make some adjustments in our lives as He guides us through the wins and the losses. It has been in this season of loss for me that I felt called to sit at His feet as Mary did and let my brothers and sisters do the service that needed to be done. I feel like God has used this time to heal my heart and refuel my soul.
But He said unto me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me… For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-19)
Our family had a big birthday celebration for my mother-in-law, Mama Lou, as she turned 84. After my sister-in-law and niece had cleaned up the entire kitchen, while the rest of us sat by and visited, I sauntered into the kitchen as they were wiping down the last counter and putting the last dish away. I said, “Oh shoot, I was going to help clean this up, what can I do? They both laughed said, “Oh no, you don’t get to wander in after the work is done and have it appear like you did this and get credit for it.” I laughed and laughed… Good intentions, or just words easily spoken? The scales weighed my heart and definitely fell heavy on the side of words easily spoken. We all got a good laugh out of it. I told them both that I had been living the life of Mary for about a year now, as I felt God calling me to stop the busyness of serving for a season and spent time just sitting at his feet. As my niece, Emily untied her apron and put the last of the food in the frig, she promptly handed me her apron and said, “ Well, I think it’s time for you to step back in cause I could use a little Mary time!”
Could you use a little Mary time? Have you been so busy serving others that you have failed to just sit at the feet of Jesus and allow Him to feed and strengthen you? As I reread this passage Jesus is very clear about what he thinks is more important — sitting at his feet and worshipping him wins!
She had a sister Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to Him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her to help me!” “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:39-42)
The truth is, we sit at His feet so we are able to serve others. We need a healthy balance of both of these things. I think I’m ready to step back in and see where God wants me to serve. I need it to be His calling alone for my life. This is a new chapter and I am excited about the fresh start I sense is ahead for me.
In many ways, the past year has been a type of wilderness experience for me. Not so much in the sense of not feeling the hand of God on my life, but more in the sense of feeling a bit lost, a bit displaced. All the things I had once relied on didn’t work anymore. I was sick, empty, broken, and weary. I felt somewhat hopeless and couldn’t see the future. I lost my song and I had no joy. I felt alone in my suffering.
“Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”(Romans 5:3-5)
If we trust Him and the truths from His word, He really will do all the things he promises. He is able. He is enough. Jesus is enough! Even when circumstances don’t necessarily change, we can still walk in victory, knowing He’s got this, and He’s got us. We may not see immediate healing or restoration of a broken relationship. We may still have the same burden for someone we love, but God shows us it’s time to stop trying to fix things on our own — to let Jesus have it — all of it. We have to trust that our job is to pray, and then to be faithful to obey Him in all He tells us.
“As for me, I vow that I will not sin against the Lord by ceasing to pray for you. I will teach you the good and right way.”(I Samuel 12:23)
So maybe you need to slow down and untie your apron, hand it to someone, and go sit down at the feet of Jesus and worship him. Cho0se the thing that is better … choose Jesus.
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” (Psalm 46:10)